Tonight i watched the "Brits" on tv with surround sound on full volume and drank a bottle of wine whilst doing so. I sang along and cheered and clapped and cried and laughed. Music is my passion. i am 43 yrs old but i am a huge fan of all music. i wept when Amy sent her little message to blake. How cute. I am so relaxed because my husband is away. he's in Mallaig working. has been since Monday. I am sleeping so well! (and no shoes in sight!) After 20 years of treading on egg shells i have some freedom and it feels good. I drove to Aberlour and bought cigarettes and smoked some ( in defiance ) and it felt good. I cant get too used to it cos he'll be home n Friday but i'm enjoying the peace. C.xxx